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Monday, November 17, 2003
In life, we are fortunate to have many freedoms. The freedom of speech, the freedom of religon, the freedom of thought, and the freedom of actions. But what happens when we take those freedoms to the extream. Over use their powers. What happens when your actions become crimes, when your thoughts turn into criminalistic actions. When your religion becomes dangerous, to you and the people around you. And lastly what happens when you push your freedom of speech to far, beyond the limits. You say to much, let the bird fly. When you tell someone you love them when you don't, or you don't tell them when you really do. When you tell a little "white lie" that eventually turns into an imensely untrue happening. When you say something to someone just to get back at them. When you say something that you'll regret tomorow. The action of speech is one that can never be taken back, whats said is done and whats done is said. What do you do when you say something you don't mean, something you thought was true but ended up to be completely wrong. What do you do? What do you do when you tell someone something but can't prove it to them. What do you do when someone tells you they love you, you mean the world to them, they couldn't live with out you, but continue to live their life like you're not even there....do they really mean it, or are they abusing their freedom of speech, taking things to the extream. Making themselves feel supurior to those around them, but hurting those they love. The pain is just to real, there is just to much that time cannot erase, when you'd cried i'd wipe away all of your tears, when you scream i'd fight away all of your fears when i held your hand through all of these years.....you won't let me go cuz u just don't know what you've done to me, those words you said, they were thought to be true, but in the end it was just you being you. I don't know what to do, i can't stand to see you walk away, but I can't just leave you here to stay. You hurt me to much and i cannot stand to bear the pain any longer. Whats done is done and whats said is said. You can't take it back now, no its been just to long. You're freedoms been erased, you actions have taken place, my love for you has faded, but i still can't stand to watch you walk away......these are the words i say as you tried to take back all of your actions of betray...
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 9:16:24 pm by my_life
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Sunday, October 26, 2003
As she sits there thinking about how her life is passing her by she begins to think about all the people in her life. How close they are and how close they should really be. Why is it that the one thats drifting away is the one that is supose to be the closest. She finds it hard to figure out if maybe she is the one thats drifting or if he is either or. It makes her question things she thought she knew and wonder about the things she thought wud last forever. The person that is drifting away she truely wishes was the one that was the closest. Day by day she starts to get closer to sumone else, and she begings to wonder why this is happening to her. big risks. Theres so mcuh to lose. Things could get better yet they could get worse. How does she know forsure? does she realy know wut love is? She really wishes that the one that is supposed to be the closest would be there when she needs and when she needed him the most hed be here, but he's not. And the one she's becoming closer to is there....and always will be.
Why do things like this happen, why do people have to be put through the pain and suffering of a broken heart that no one's able to mend? Why isn't there just an easy way out? Why does everythin gotta be so complicated? When life gets tough we all get frustrated. Only the best of us can over come that frustration and make the wrongs right. Mend the hearts. And be able to live life regret free. Life and love are one in the same. Child Adult then Death. Like Love then Broken Hearts. Make your decisions wisely, remember the hearts of the people around you. And most of all....follow your heart, cause love will always find a way......
IdIoT_me
Posted at 9:10:41 pm by my_life
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Tuesday, October 14, 2003
Dead to the world, I walk as if I am no longer alive to those of you surrounding me. You act like you don't care but really its because you don't dare show your weaker side within you. You act like im not there but really your just to rude to stare. You say you want me dead but really you've just got too many things going through your head. You may not see me as i walk the halls, the streets, or as im driving past you on the road. But I am there. The reasoning is never clear. Dead or alive im right by your side. No matter how much you love me or how much you hate me I am always going to be right there. Hate and Love are the greatest opposites ever known. But yet, so simmilar. It's all about how one looks at the moment. You can say you love someone so much but yet its just a small cry for help. You can say you hate someone with great passion but yet another cry for help. You can beg for love, and you can beg for forgiveness. But once you've lost your life, you cannot beg to have it back. Life is a precious gift. Only to be recieved once. And taken away once. Those few that are blessed enough to be able to die and come back to life are extreamly loved. And those who were never given the chance to come back seem to be shown extream hate. Love - Hate, opposites but yet side by side. Life - Death, opposites but yet side by side. Does life=love and death=hate. Or is it that life=hate and love=death? Do we really know, do we really care? Do we even know what hate is? Do we know what love is? Do we know what hate isn't, and why one hates another? Do we know what love isn't, and why one loves another? Do we want to know? Does it matter to us? Emotions fly unstablely untill the day comes, and your life is no longer there to pass you by.....
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 10:58:19 pm by my_life
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Monday, October 13, 2003
The cruel, the inconsiderate, the unknown, the unaware, the uncool, the unjust, the nerd, the geeks, the brains, the jocks, the dancers, the children, the granparents, idiots, the blind, the poor, the deaf, the phisically challenged, the mentaly challenged, the men, the women, the loners, the popular ones, the uncared for, the uncaring, the trustworthy, the untrustworthy, the pure at heart, the unpure at heart, the loveable, the cute, the sweet, the kind, the generous, the athletic, the dilikealbe, the ugly, the crude, the evil, the unable to share, the you's, the me's, the they's, the them's, and the wanna be's all deserve nothing more and nothing less than life it's self. For no matter how one looks at another, they are still a human being, and as a human are entitled to life itself. Take what is not yours, and get what you are not willing to be granted....
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 10:23:20 pm by my_life
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Tuesday, October 07, 2003
Its just an ordinary day. The crowds roaring, the people are smiling, the plans are set for Friday night, and your just a chuckleing away with your buds. What else can ya ask for? Maybe a wake up call, the loud buzzzzzzz! comming from your alarm clock. Its 7 a.m. a brand new day. The crowds a whispering, the people are glaring, the plans have been canceled and your friends are no where to be found. The reoccuring dream. The wishes that were never granted. The life you never lived. The friends you never had. The plans you never made. The jokes you never heard. Your life is nothing but a fantasy. Or is it? Did you actually live this life, and leave yourself to sit and watch it pass you by? Maybe you watched the others sit back as you passed them by. Are your dreams ever going to come true. Are you livin your life wishin on someone else's star, dreaming someone else's dreams, being who you are not. Regreting your past, reliving the future, restarting the present. You may come and go as you please. No matter who you are, what you do, what your name is, where your from, or how I know you. One will always leave footprints upon my heart. Memories will be made, mistakes will be forgotten, friendships will happen. Some memories will be forgotten, others will remain forever. Some mistakes will return some will stay where they belong, forgotten. Some friendships will end, while others will be a lifelong thing. Things happen, that aren't always explainable. Hates take place that aren't always reasonable. Loves become what one never thought was possible. You live and you learn, you cry and you die. The world is so unpredictable and one may never know what is to be held before them. Mistakes are meant to be made. Dreams are meant to be lived, stars are made to be wished on, lives are meant to be lived. Don't waste your time dreaming and wishing of what could have been or what was. Leave the past in the past, live in the present and strive for the future. Wish upon a star and just remember who you are.....
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 10:06:04 pm by my_life
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Tuesday, September 30, 2003
The game of love is quite the experience to be a part of. One day you could just be sitting there and whao! look out here comes a curveball headed straight for your heart, ready to break it in two. Are you ready for that day? Do you have your bat pulled back, your elbow up, your eye on the ball? Are you prepared to hit that ball outta the park? Protect your heart. You never know whats gonna come your way. Loving someone is one thing. Loveing one person and having feelings for another person is another thing. Is your relationship becoming a swing and a miss? Or just another curveball thrown at you. A situation like this can be taken many different ways. It all depends on how you look at life? Are you willing to take that if'y swing and make your relationship last? Or do you watch the ball glide right threw that strike zone, and ruin your relationship, break your heart? Maybe the feelings aren't true. Maybe its all a mind game. Jealousy, boredom, curiosity, fate. Who knows, maybe you don't even know? But either way one love is going to be more powerfull than the other. And I feel that you better make up your mind quick, choose one or the other, for having both is no longer a faithful option. Why are the feelings there? There has to be a reason. There is a reason for everything. We may not know it at the time. But time tells everything, and before you know it the answers to your questions will be found. You may be unnaware of them, but they are there, sometimes you just need someone to help point them out to you. Sometimes you don't get the chance, sometimes its to late to go back. Be aware of your feelings, be aware of why you are feeling the way you are, think before you act. In the game of love, theres not always a second chance. Know that what your thinking and feeling effects the people around you. Three strikes and your out. The first two may be bad. But its the third one that you remember forever.
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 9:38:17 pm by my_life
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Monday, September 29, 2003
Thoughts that go through peoples mind, is a knowledge that i will never contain. People act out various actions that are not always known to the world around them of their importance. People often try so hard to get what they cannot have. The effort put forth in that action is sometimes so intense that they are unaware of the other options around them. For instance someone could want a glass of apple juice so much that they don't even notice the apple sitting next to them. Sure it may not be exactly the same. But yet neither one is automaticly better than the other. They may look different, they may have a different name. But all and all they are just the same, except for the fact that one is unavailable to you. If this is the case would you take the other? 99% of the people would. So when it comes to love, why does one waste their time waiting and waiting for that one to love them back when someone just as good to your eyes, and possibly even better on the inside, has a love for you already like no other? Perception. Is a one word answer for that question. How one percieves things influences their actions. One may seem not as good at first, but in the end can be just as good or even better. Love is a game of chance. Its just a gamble you've got to take. Take your pick.....the apple juice, or the apple. Remember, its the apple that makes the apple juice. What you think of someone, is not always how things are. Take a chance, live life, love like you've never loved before.
Posted at 1:24:51 am by my_life
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Wednesday, September 24, 2003
[wHaT tHe WorLd nEEdS nOW]
Love? What is love? Do we actually know? Do we really care? Is love an action? A feeling? A phrase or saying? A person? Maybe even a place. Is there such a thing as true love. One and only one true lover? Fate? Destiny? Love at first sight? What are these things? Do they really exist? or did we as human beings just make them up to be something they are not? If someone told you that they loved you, yet they did not understand the meaning of love, would it still have the same affect. According to the world around us there are many different kinds of love. The love for a parent, grandparent, brother, sister, aunt, uncle, or cousin. The love for a spouse. The love for a boyfriend or girlfriend. Strangely those two loves are different. There is also the love for a friend. The love for a pet. And finaly the love of oneself. There are many other kinds of "love" floating around in this world. There are many people in this world who may never know what it is like to love, or to be loved. Love is a special thing, that is only known by some people. Many people think they know what love really is, but they really don't. "I love you, but I'm not in love with you." Contradicting statements such as that one, throw off peoples preception of love. To be young and in love is rare, im not saying it doesn't happen, 'cause I have seen it before, but it is rare. Love is a thing learned by maturity. It involves responsibility. It requires greatness, attention, caringness, and most of all comunication. True love is rare, but when found it is great. Is that true? Seems to me these days that love doesn't last forever. Or are people just unaware of what love really is. Think of all the people that are gettin divorces, think of all the single parents. If it was true love they had found, and true love was really great, would there have been a need for a divorce? Would there be single parents and bastard children in this world? Do we know what we're talking about? Do we know what it is? Will we ever know? Is love really love? Or is it just a word, incorrectly used? I may never know, and you may neither. Live your life how you like, and I shall live mine they way I enjoy. Love the way you know how, and I shall love like no other.
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 1:05:16 am by my_life
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Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Never under estimate the impossible. Anything can happen at anytime no matter who you are, anything is possible. Sometimes the worst of things happen to the best people. Just being in the right place at the wrong time can change one's life forever. Sayin the wrong things to the wrong people can ruin your life or even their life. One should be carefull of their actions 'cause you never know what they might be doing to those around you. The thought of someone ending their life all cause of you, can tear you up inside. Scare you to death(metaphoricly speaking). Everyonce in awhile we are bound to come into contact with a death either in your family, a friend, a friends family, or someone, a complete stranger that you might have gotten in an accident with. Either way, death is something that will change lives forever and end lives for one. If one of your friends were to commit suicide and blamed their reasoning on you. Saying it was you that was making them want to do it, what would you do? I never thought that I would have to deal with something like that but I guess we all know what thought did......I was torn up inside, I came to realize my ways of life, my outlook on life has changed, my state of mind has changed, my heart has been changed. We learn from our actions, i am a true beliver of it too. Unsinkable ships sink, unbreakable walls break, and unbendable steel bends, never underestimate the impossible.
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 1:25:42 am by my_life
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Sunday, September 14, 2003
As this day seemingly goes by slower than ever, I'm found here searching my mind for a topic to write about. There are many things in this world that I do think about, but some are so intense that they cannot even be put into words. So much happens in just one day, that its hard to focus in on just one thought. Today I'm mostly stuck with the thought of what it would be like to be old. Now by old I mean like a grandparent or even great-grandparents. Do you ever wonder what kind of thoughts go threw their head, every night when they go to bed? Do they ever wonder if they will make it through the night? Or by that time does it just not matter to them, they've excepted the way of life? People my age go to bed at night, or even sometimes early morning, and all they have to worry about is, how late they will get to sleep till the next day. It's like an unwritten competition to see who can sleep the longest. For the elderly is it a competition to see who can go to sleep the most and still wake up? Are they afraid when they catch just a regular cold, because their immune systems are weaker that they could fall to their death? Could you even put yourself into the body of an elderly person. Can you even relate to their lives? Would you be able to last the night, or would the fear of not waking up over take your confidence? Would you like being couped up in a nursing home everyday all day and knowing that that is going to be the place where you die? These thoughts all come to mind when my grandmother catches a cold and jokes around about her not thinking she would survive (or it seemed as if it was a joke). What if she really didn't survive? She went to bed tonite, and unfortunately never woke up when the sun began to rise? If tomorow for some strange reason I woke up as an elderly person would I be able to survive or would I just run and hide? Maybe it's just me who thinks of all these things. But what if there are people who are afraid to go to sleep at night in fear of not waking in the morning? What if there are people who are scared to catch a cold in dismay that their bodies may not be able to fight it off? What if people don't care about the world around them? What if the elderly are left to suffer? What kind of a world would we be then? Some may say an exceptional one others may say an awful one. IF we leave the elderly to suffer, you must realize that one day you too will suffer. Be aware of those around you. Notice how they live their lifes, how they treat others, and how you treat them. The way I live my life effects the people around me. The way you live your life, effects society. Live, Learn, Love
IdIoT_mE
Posted at 11:59:47 pm by my_life
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nothing really matters,because this site doesn't get updated to often. but when it does, oh boy is it a grand ol' time.
im 17ish
and proudly of the female gender
i have a name, its a cool name, im sure u wish it was ur name
i live in a house, it has walls and doors and windows, and all that other stuff that houses have
im me, and thats how i see it, i may walk the walk but i aint be talkin the talk
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